Redefining?

I don't know if we are redefining our relationships. It is true that I am looking for ultimate love, but never found, no matter how much I surrender, down the line, I get disappointments.

I don't know what exactly I am looking for now. Yes I too need a male partner, but I find it difficult when my partner is not loyal. How to redefine relationship? Although after making up my mind not to have commitment with my partner, I still undergo pressure when I know he is not sincere to me. At such, am I redefining relationship?